i swear the only time i blog is when i have house work to do. i haven't posted in a while. i'm not sure anyone really reads this shit plus there's been a lot to update on, however not all of it was exactly what i'd like to share with anybody. i've had a rough too weeks. a bad attitude and a lot of biting my tongue. i feel so fake all the time trying to spare everyone's feelings from my harsh comments and lewd jokes that apparently go too far. i always have my dad, nick and sierra who i swear i can say anything to without any judgement. it's nice to have a handful of people i can vent to.

anyway, my mom is having surgery on friday to get a lump removed from her breast. she's already had a biopsy to confirm it isn't breast cancer, but it's still serious. i wish i could go to her appointment with her, but it's just not possible with andrew. he's too much of a handful now to sit still for 2 hours. and i wanted to go to her house afterward to make her dinner, but i guess she's going to my dad's afterward which is probably the best place for her to be. it's always so quiet and my dad spoils the hell out of her. too bad his house is too far away (over an hour) to wait for nick to get home at five, drive there, make her dinner, eat and then drive home. so she's coming over tomorrow. i told her i'd make her anything she wants and of course for her post surgery meal she wants heart attack tacos. since we were kids (until i was about 15 and my mom gave up on cooking since "she only had children so she'd have someone to wait on her" and i didn't mind cooking. seriously she said that) she made us what my sister and i call "heart attack tacos" since they are greasier than bacon. it's basically a thin layer of ground beef spread on half a corn tortilla and then fried in oil, then you take it out and put half a piece of american cheese in it before you close. i eat them plain but my mom puts in lettuce and ketchup, nick always puts in avocado (mexican!). only those who have ever been truly close with my family know about our freakish recipes. my favorite is the dip. oh god the dip (: favorite food since i was five. gives you the worst breath.
this weekend is father's day. i'm not sure if we'll make it out to see my dad, but if not i put together the best present for him. if anyone knows me i almost always give framed photos as presents. i took almost all the black and white photos from my dad's childhood and put them in a really nice frame. i'm so excited for him to get it. even if i have to mail it. hopefully the weather will be nice enough for nick, andrew, emy and i to go to beach. i wanted to go a few weeks ago, but didn't wanna risk sand in andrew's eyes so soon after the surgery.
ugh see this is why i should have blogged sooner. there's so much to say. our anniversary, andrew's eye surgery, emeril running way, my hair!, joey's graduation, nick's sister tiffany visiting. i'll sum it up with hopefully a few sentences each.
our anniversary
on tuesday, june 7, 2011 nick and i celebrated being together for three years. we didn't really do anything out of the ordinary due to the lack of funds and not being able to find a sitter in the middle of the week. but we did watch just go with it and had a really nice dinner. it was a good day. i love him so much.
andrew's surgery
it went very well and the staff at the silverdale surgery center have the best bedside manner i've ever experienced. his eyes are perfectly straight and it couldn't have gone better.\
before
after
emeril running away
the same day of andrew's surgery emeril decided to follow a little girl home from the bus stop at the end of our street. and of course he was not wearing his collar. we looked for him for about 3 hours total. nick posted an ad on craigslist and i reported him missing to the humane society. we were going to make fliers, but we don't have a printer (never really needed one). so since andrew was still drugged up and his eyes were still bleeding we decided to hold off the fliers until the next morning. that morning when we left to go make the flier we saw a found flier on the mail box, called the number and got him home safely.
my hair!
the next day we went to my mom's where my uncle's girlfriend who is a beautician did my hair, as well as nick's my sister's and my mom's. i got mine cut and dyed a dark chocolate brown like when i was in high school. i love the color. however i stupidly decided to get very blunt bangs. i've had bangs 3 times now since i was in elementary school. i hated them when i was 15, when i was 19 and now when i'm almost 21. hopefully i'll learn my lesson and never do this to my head again.
my brother's graduation
it went over okay. the night before though i had to make a macaroni salad (which i keep fucking up by experimenting), and stay the night at my mom's house putting together this stupid scrapbook collage on a poster board until 2 am. ugh! then the next day i had to load everything in the car and nick, andrew and i drove to my dad's. while i cut up fruit, nick put up banners and tried to keep andrew from making a mess. then everyone showed up and we had sandwiches, chicken, potato and macaroni salad, fruit, veggies, beans and all sorts of other yummy things. then the kids +nick thought it would be fun to draw boobs all over everyone's car. and then for some reason i was stuck washing all the boobs off with a windex and a roll of paper towels. but then after everyone left my mom took a nap with andrew and my brother and buddha took our cousin chelsey, nick and myself up to the steel bridge since we'd never been. it wasn't as high as i thought it would be, but the view was breathtaking.



nick's sister visiting
on monday nick's sister and his niece came to visit. since it was the middle of the week and nick was working there wasn't much to do, but it was still nice to see them.
other than those events, i've become addicted to dexter. netflix instant play only offers seasons 1 and 2 so i now have to order the discs by mail which fucking SUCKS since each disc only has like 3 episodes on it and you have to wait like 3 days between each disc but oh well.
i've finally been getting andrew to eat something other than baby food. unfortunately he hates my cooking. but he will eat cereal (hold the milk), mandarin oranges and other soft fruit, macaroni and cheese, tater tots, mixed frozen veggies. we're going grocery shopping saturday at the commisary and i'll get him chicken nuggets to test. i'm sure he'll love them. nick and i have been obsessed with smoothies lately so he always has fresh fruit. the only problem is i cannot get him to drink out his sippy cup. he doesn't understand that you have to tip it up to get the liquid out. the first time i gave it to him he tried to drink out of it from the floor. i'll post a pic at the end of this paragraph. he's finally down to 3 bottles a day and i'm hoping to wean him by the time he turns one, but on;y if he figures out the cup. he's starting to cruise more. i think it'd speed up his walking if he could touch the ground in his walker, but he still hasn't been able to yet. i guess it was inevitable he'll be short like me.

btw: new favorite song is monster by paramore